sorry i haven't been on in ages. my laptop broke. :( so i will try and update as much as possible with this minor set back.
If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they'd never ask you to.
I figure, the bigger the mistake looks, the better chance I'll have to break out and live a real life. Like Christoper Columbus sailing toward disaster at the edge of the world. Our real discoveries come from chaos .. from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish.
And like I really deserve a chance to sit across a table and tell you that I think you're wonderful, and I think you're something special. I guess this is my only chance to say I wish I knew you because I'm sure you're wonderful if I'd get to know you.
All I've got left to say is everything I've been dying to say; never let love get away.
You're not the breath I breathe, just the sweet scent that I enjoy. You're not the sights I see, just the most beautiful of them. You're not the water I drink, just the flavor that makes it taste so good. You're not the ground I walk on, just the partner I sometimes lean on. You're not the blood in my veins, just what makes it burn so sweetly. You're not my life, just the one I want to spend it with. You're not my world, just the best thing in it.
I thought you were too screwed up to love anyone. I was wrong. You just couldn't love me. It's okay. I'm happy for you.
What screws us up in life the most is the picture in our head of how it should be.
I'm not sure what to do about you. The feeling has never stopped. I've always wanted to be with you, and I've always had a thing for you. It fades in and out... but it never really goes away.
Everyone has a desire. But I think it gets lost in translation. And we start to desire all of the wrong things for the wrong reasons.
You don't get to choose, you just fall in love and you get this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know you love them so much except sometimes they drive you completely insane- no one can explain it. And the reason it's so confusing is because it's love, but if love didn't have challenges, what would be the point?
it`s not that i believe everything happens for a reason. it`s just that i think that some things are meant to be broken. imperfect. chaotic. it`s the universe`s way of providing contrast, you know? there has to be a few holes in the road, because that`s just how life is.
It is one of life's tragedies when you meet someone that you know is meant to be, but due to unexpected circumstances and misunderstandings, becomes someone you knew. Or when you can walk right past someone that at one part of your life was a big part of your life, and how you used to be able to talk to them for hours about the little nothings in life, and now you can barely look at them, and all you have left is that aching feeling in your soul.
For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of, and if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
